[Q1] Provide the Ban link or if none, the reason
(Profanity at others (toxicity), sexual references, political talk.)
[Q2] Did you break the rules knowingly?
Partially, depending on which one: To start with, the profanity at others. To give a rundown of what happened last night. I had been grinding for about 4 or 5ish hours to get a full set of Titanium armor. Most of the altars had already been smashed, so I was spending quite a while to find that last amount for my boots. I kept dying and getting increasingly more frustrated. I began noticing another user seemed to be following me. He’d get to a certain distance and stop. I speculate that he had been map watching me. Afterwards, I had died about 3 or 4 times from lava, and I noticed when I died, the other user went for the titanium that I located, and then had mined it up. Yes, I know this isn’t technically breaking the rules, but from he’s behavior it really seemed to me that I was being trolled, baited.
At 2:36 AM Eastern time US, I said "Stop hogging all the Titanium you fucking loser. In hindsight, this was definitely against the rules. At the time I was saying this, I wasn’t really considering the possible repercussions, I had perceived myself as being trolled/baited and hadn’t considered that someone might see me as the aggressor here. Which, verbally it seems I was. Me and other users had gotten into an argument, which they told me to “Cope” Cope is commonly used in internet circles as a means of trolling/baiting language, this made me very upset to see. I then proceeded to call user “Water Bottle” a retard, and a dumbass. This in hindsight, was definitely against the rules.
Now, aside from this, earlier in that day, another user Serra had found a rod of discord, I at first expressed the desire to buy it from them, but they refused. I was not annoyed by this at all because I had no use for the item, nor cared about it. I sometimes like to roleplay, or do a sort of faux animesque persona. If you reread the chat you can see I quote many popular video game characters and movies. Serra seemed to be well aware I was merely putting on an act for fun, but now it seems other users didn’t understand this. I apologize for that. But no, I do not believe that this interaction with Serra counted as me breaking the rules.
As for the other interaction, then I will say for “Profanity at others (toxicity)” Yes, I knowingly broke that rule.
For the second reason: “sexual references”, I would say this one is harder to answer, I had made a comment stating “if you had a black girlfriend, and she was into domination (sexually), would you say the n word for her?” In hindsight, yes, I knowingly broke a rule here. This was not explicitly sexual, but it is blurring the lines between what is acceptable and what is not.
The second reason for this, another user made a comment about the Zoologist, he stated, something indicating attraction, and I had made a joke relating to her breast size. It wasn’t explicitly sexual and wasn’t meant to be provocative, was more of a low class joke. I honestly can’t say if I knowingly broke a rule here. It was just something I said out of an attempt at a joke. I would go with no for this one.
Now for the final reason: “political talk”, This one I can say with absolute certainty, No, I didn’t knowingly break this, or was aware that it was a rule. Another user, (who was listed on a player report with me recently) Had made disparaging comments about other countries and nationalities. I took a neutral stance, and I didn’t share any of his sentiments, I had simply made a comment about the Saudi government, and how the Saudi military operates. I did say “don’t worry, geography is taking care of them” This may sound Anti-Saudi, but this is actually a demonstrable fact that the Saudi nation has been on decline due to geography influence. It was ABSOLUTELY NOT, intended as hate speech of any sort. I also made the comment, “You are Worst Turk” in response to something the user had said against Turkey. This is again, not hate speech, as a matter of fact, I was actually mocking the user for his viewpoint. It’s a direct reference to a meme, verbatim quote for quote, that was created to poke fun at anti-Turk nationalists. In hindsight however, many did not understand the context of the meme, and it is something again I shouldn’t have said.
[Q3] Do you think your Ban was fair? If not, please provide a reason.
Given the intense reaction I displayed, and the overwhelming amount of events that had happened in a short period of time, Yes, I would say I can absolutely understand why I have been banned. As an outsider, a moderator may not see the context of everything taking place. It’s harder to see below the surface of some things. When I was getting angry at that other user for what he did, or making the political and/or sexual comments, it’s not hard to see why a moderator would interpret it as me being toxic, an aggressor, attempting to rile people up politically, or acting as some form of sexual predator. Context isn’t automatically seen unless one looks behind the surface, and really sees all the details.
[Q4] Why should we unban you?
I’m not here to cause trouble, I’m not someone who tries to start problems, or goes out of his way to attempt to mess with people. I just want to have a good game, have fun, maybe crack some jokes with people. Terraria can be a very difficult and frustrating game. And I sometimes do have issues with regulating my anger. I’m not trying to gain sympathy, but I was formally diagnosed with a psychotic disorder. In periods of stress when I’m playing a game, and failing at it very badly, my brain interprets the trouble happening in the game as something equitable with reality, and triggers sort of a flight or fight response. I honestly interpreted that interaction I had with that individual as him attempting to bait/troll me. I now realize that very well may not have been the case. I apologize for that. I just want to play the game, have fun, have a good time. I promise you I learned a lot from this situation. I hadn’t been aware of some of the rules (Such as the political talk) as well as certain aspects of the NSFW rule. I now realize that ABSOLUTELY NO sexual talk is allowed whatsoever, not even cracking non explicit jokes. I promise you I didn’t do any of this to cause any sort of problems, or mess with anyone.